Uncle Jr.

today is my uncles birthday, he passed away about a month ago, he would have been 47. he was the uncle that was always smiling and always trying to put a smile on your face. he never married but had a life long girlfriend and never had kids although, i think he had many kids with all his nieces nephews and all our kids! i saw a post on my aunts facebook with a picture of my grandma and him and i just started to cry. i know that they are both in heaven together along with my grandpa, i am almost jealous b/c im not there with them. not that i am sending a message to God that i want my number pulled... i just mean to say that i miss them so very much. i want to see that they are all with out pain from the health issues they had here on earth. i want to hear their voices and feel their hugs again. when i was sitting at my uncles viewing i could hear his laugh and at his funeral it was gone, i couldnt hear it anymore. i wish i could go back to my childhood when i would stay for two weeks at my grandmas house so i could really listen to all their stories, advice and loving words. why is it we dont know as children to cherish those moments? i hope they all can hear my words now, Happy Birthday Uncle Jr., I miss each of you so much it is hard not to cry while i type, and I can not wait til i can be with you again.

These Boys.....

There is not a day that goes by that either of the boys don’t do or say something to make me laugh out loud…..how blessed are we? On Saturday we took Trenton to get a new hair cut, we walked in and the ladies were in the back and Hudson loudly declares, “Hello, I here!” Kenny looked at me and said, “He is just like you!” The other night Trenton and I watched a movie together and he said I could pick out the movie, so I said either Sound of Music or Mary Poppins. Trenton says, “Mom, I think you’re not allowed to pick anymore.” I told him, “That’s what your dad says.” There are so many times I wish that there was a pop up that goes off before the boys say or do something so I can go get my camera ready and have it on film. One, so I can watch it over and over again when they grow up and leave the house and two, so I can use it against them when they have their kids!
The other day I asked Kenny, do you feel the way do about Trenton….like we missed some years of him growing up because I just cannot believe that he is already 8 years old. Of course we haven’t missed years they just have gone flying by. the one advice I kept hearing over and over again when I was pregnant and when Trenton was a newborn….Enjoy every minute because it flies by. I know back than I really didn’t believe them and thought we have a long life ahead of us. Now, 8 years later, I know I was so naïve to believe we have a long life ahead of us!