scrapbooks

Last night I took out an old scrapbook to share with Trenton since Hudson fell asleep early....30 minutes later I thought....why have we not done this before?

Once upon a time when I was a stay at home/travel with my husband to every baseball field on the east coast mom I used to have so much time to devote to scrap booking. I loved every minute of each step...taking the pictures, going to the store to pick out the pages to go with the picture I just took, getting all my scrapbook things together on the floor, cutting/gluing/sticking all paper/decorations/pictures to each page. It was so peaceful and so therapeutic for me. I was even the mom who would be told, wow you put so much time into that, just wait when you have another child you won't be able to do this, and I would reply with no hesitation or doubt in my mind, actually I will do this for each of my children....ha! isn't that a dream!!!! Trenton-the first born- has three hand made scrapbooks, Hudson-the second born- has three print out from Shutterfly!

Trenton and I at the baseball field 2004

As Trenton and I were going over each page and each memory with the page I could see in his eyes at that moment he not only felt loved but also seemed to be so happy and proud to have been to all these different places. He remembered some of the events we went to or had but mostly laughed at what he had done in each picture...his first birthday we had a party in Katy and one in California, at the California party before anyone could begin to sing happy birthday he had dug his hand into the cake! Again, why have I not pulled these out before to have a special time with Trenton? It was a wonderful moment with just Trenton and I.

Now here is the sad part....as I was looking through the pictures I could not get over the fact at how skinny I was and how at that time in my life I thought I was fat. Why did I and still do torture myself in the now with thinking so many bad things about myself...thighs are so jiggly, have Oprah arms, muffin top and the list goes on? I am the same weight and size in clothes as I was then but I looked at the pictures and thought wow I was fit. Why can I not learn to think of that now when I look in the mirror? Ugh, am I the only one that does this?



Our last night in Binghamton with Nancy and Karen-such dear freinds!



Our last night with Tim and Jake...lots of fun memories!







Trenton trying to take in every playing moment he could on the baseball field

30 facts about me on my 30th

1. First time I saw Kenny, I knew. Not sure why I knew or even knew what made me know I knew but I knew that is who I could not live a day with out.

2. Love to hear my boys laugh, the deep from the belly laugh!

3. Sarcastic, most things that come out of my mouth are either sarcastic or a joke, if you don't get my humor you probably think I am mean.

4. I pray every day and night, I am Catholic and I believe in Jesus Christ with all my being, yet I don't want to be one of those people who proclaim as loud as they can and make you feel like you believe less then they do, so when I do tell people I will pray for them there is a look in their eyes like wow, you really mean that don't you? And I get more joy from that then being "one of those Christians".

5. I am not very crafty but can see things on DIY or Pintrest and figure out my way of doing it...might look a bit off but it usually still works.

6. Often think if you and I don't talk your upset with something I have done or said, then I think about it for days and will not ask you about it until I can not take it anymore. People Pleaser anyone?

7. Should be the spokes person for Ohh La La! I tell everyone about this place, if not tell them I take them there!

8. Can not stand when things change with out notice. I get this from my mother. Once I get over the not knowing of the change I am good with it...just warn me first please.

9. I am a planner, p-l-a-n-n-e-r!!!!! Cant help it, sorry!

10. I never really liked the color pink growing up...it was purple....but now I am in love with pink, pink nail polish, pink shoes, pink shirts, pink skirts, pink closet...ok ok kenny stopped me at painting my closet pink but you get it...I love pink!

11. Still have a hard time watching Trenton play football. I just can not take it when he tackles someone.

12.  I wish I could go to a grocery store one time and only get that one item I went in the store for. Yes, I am that person that doesn't grab a cart and by the time I get to the check out look like a fool because I have so much....get a cart is what I see in people's faces!!!!


13. Want to adopt one day, hopefully a girl, but feel as if I need to give back since my father was adopted.
 
14. Can not go a day with out drinking green tea with honey

15. I get so much peace and joy out of making scrapbooks....last one I completed was Trenton's because life happened and I really have no time, yes I was one of those moms that vowed to never leave any child behind like they all tell you....the first child gets all the good stuff and the rest you wont have time for them!....well guess what...they were all right! My poor Hudson has scrapbooks all made from Shutterfly. (I will make it up to him with a scrapbook for his wife!)

16. I could watch baseball all day long, oh wait we have the baseball channel and do watch it all day long and watch the repeats and updates all night long!

17. Want my hair long again but then get frustrated it's not growing fast enough so I cut it!

18. Could not live with out hand sanitizer! I take it with me everywhere, so yes ladies when you see me get out of the stall and do not go to the germed up sink, do not worry, I have hand sanitizer.

19. Can not stand when people cry, it gets me every time and I cry and want to help.

20. I used to be a dr.pepper and crown girl, now I am a wine girl, my aunt introduced to me Moscato wine...yes it is a desert wine but hello dr. pepper and crown....I am in love!

21. Love Glee, when my older sister was in show choir I was so jealous because I knew I could never sing or dance that way, now that I have Glee I sing and dance with them in my home....the boys laugh at me but at least I get it out some way!!!

22. Can't stop thinking I never got to take my grandma outside like I told her I would before she passed. This haunts me.

23. Needs braces.

24. Do not like to take medicine, I would rather be hurting or sick then take medicine. It has to be bad for me to take medicine...not sure why?

25. I am a dreamer, I have fun dreams, crazy off the wall dreams, scary dreams, dreams about people from high school and being super hero's! And then I wonder if I am dreaming about them....in any way fun/scary/crazy are they dreaming about me?

26. Would like to be a stay at home mom but would get bored so fast and have to find something to do.

27. Tried to sell Mary Kay but am the 75% who fail at it.

28. Wishes I had a personal chef at home for two reasons...one,so when I don't have time to cook dinner will be ready when I get home, because I am a person who needs to eat when they are hungry or become your worst nightmare, and two, so I can learn how to cook amazing dinners like good wives are supposed to cook from the chef.

29. Would not know what to do if Kenny, Trenton or Hudson went to see our Father. I know that is our home but I know I would not be able to live on Earth without them here with me.

30. After having Trenton the doctor told me I would not be able to have kids anymore I switched to another doctor who said the same thing, I went to one last doctor who told me that in a woman's life time they usually have 10 miscarriages without even knowing....4 1/2 years later and 4 miscarriages we had Hudson!

last day in my 20's!!!!

Today is my last day in my 20's!!!! I am not sure if I am upset about this or not, I do know I am looking forward to having fun in my 30's! Here are a few blessings I have had in my 20's.........of course i have to make jokes about them

• marriage to Kenny who I can honestly say still listens to me when he wants to, makes me laugh at least once a day at all his poses in the mirror, takes care of me when I am sick and makes fun of me when I am sick, keeps the love between us going even if it is with all the noises that comes from him!!!!! (he's going to kill me for that one! lol)
• traveled with Kenny and his baseball career, met so many caring and loving people that I still talk to today!
• Trenton my first born, sweetest, and so thoughtful and quiet yet once you get to know him funniest jokester boy I know...wonder where he gets that from ;)
• built our first house that seemed to be the home we would love forever but things happen....
• Hudson the loud but honest say what he thinks when he thinks it, and most loving when your hurt or upset boy I know....wonder where he gets that from ;)
• found a job I truly don't mind driving in a hour long traffic jam there and back even though it takes me 15 minutes on a no traffic day 
• bought a new car...first brand new car for me
• built our second home and I hope to stay in this house til the boys are out of high school
• friends that have come and gone and come back again like we never had a moment away from each other
• found my way back into softball
• new determination to try and be a better human and try to stop bad habits even though I still curse, drink too much dr. pepper, add way too much salt, drive with a lead foot, watch way too much of the OWN network, care what people I don't even know think about me and cant let things go....I haven't increased any of these so hopefully I can work on them in my 30's!

4am wake up call



with some of the girls at the marathon

The softball team I help coach volunteered at the Chevron Marathon Sunday and although I got three hours of sleep, it was cold for the first few hours, and we had Gatorade thrown at us after the runners drank it was all worth it! Note to self: if i want to leave on time with three teenage girls-wake them up 30 minutes early not 15 minutes early! Who knew they needed to put make up on and fix their hair at 4am....I never, I mean never, woke up as a teenager put make up on and fix my hair at 4am, I just didn't care!
Back to the marathon, we helped volunteer with the The Todd Krampitz Foundation handing out Gatorade to the marathon runners as well as cheering them on at the 10th mile. (My favorite sign read: Chuck Norris never ran a marathon!) There really is an exact science to having the Gatorade taste good for the runners...three stirs only, and if there are more we have to throw the whole thing out and start over! We had to place 300 cups down, fill with Gatorade, place card board down, stack 300 cups down, fill with Gatorade, place card board down, stack 300 cups down, fill with Gatorade, place card board down and finally place 300 cups down fill with Gatorade. Then we waited for the runners, if you blinked you would not have seen the winner of the race...his time was under three hours! The first 100 runners had body's that you see on posters and pins on Pinterest...I am sure 0% body fat and drank no Gatorade! The second group of runners were the experienced marathon runners, runners who probably ran in one marathon and have been addicted to running as many marathons as they can and one out of every 10 grabbed Gatorade.  The next group of runners were the dedicated runners, runners who do not run for money or sponsorship but run because they take pleasure in running....still something I am working on....and one out of every three grabbed Gatorade. The last group of runners/walkers...each grabbed Gatorade and some even stopped to say thank you.... were the runners who wanted to accomplish competing in a marathon and determined to finish the race even if the cops abandoned them and told them to move to the sidewalk instead of the street. There were couple runners, young runners...age 6-8 youngest, there were older runners...a lot of older runners which was very inspiring. One of the last runners in the marathon was an older woman with a shirt that read. "I had a hip replacement 6 months ago!" I got tears in my eyes as we clapped and cheered her on! I know the experience in volunteering at the marathon is only going to push me more to train harder and not give up on running this marathon next year! Hopefully not only will I be in the dedicated runners group but I will have the softball girls along side with me!

By the way check out http://www.tkfoundation.org/

boys say the darnest things!

I have been thinking of all the things my boys have said to me over the past few years and thought I may not remember them when they have kids. So, here is just a few things these boys have told me over the years that I can remember and hopefully get a kick out of telling their kids about one day!!!!

I am sure there is more in my brain but these stand out for sure!

Trenton-

Me: Trenton your breath is stinky you need to brush your teeth or you will not get any girls when you get older. Trenton: I know mom I will get them with my looks!

Me: If you want a puppy you have got to clean up after it, its just like a baby. You know maybe you should go work at a veterinarian clinic for a day and see if you want a puppy after picking up all the poop, and pee. Kenny: that's why you go to college and become a veterinarian. Trenton: No that is why you are the pet so you can poop and pee whenever and where ever you want!

Trenton to his Kindergarten Teacher: Miss Sands, you have to keep an eye on me because my name is Trenton Chenard!

Helping Trenton with homework: Mom my mind is out of my brain.

Me: Praise God in everything you do Trenton because God is always behind you. Trenton: what happens if you sit down?


Hudson-

Hudson: mom where's my sand box? Me: we cleaned out the sand. Hudson: who did it? Me: Dad. Hudson (while shaking his head): Damn Dad

Me: Hudson you just hurt the dog, tell him your sorry. Hudson: The dog doesn't talk mom!

Me: shit! Hudson: mom we don't say shit.

radio this morning: 12 more days til Christmas. Hudson in the back seat: mmmmmooooooommmmm 12 more days til Christmas? why? me: it will be Christmas soon buddy. Hudson: 2 days, then 1 day then guess what mom it will be Christmas.

Hudson when Keith urban starts to sing on CMA's..."mom he looks like a girl"

Me:Hudson you need to sleep in your bed. Hudson:no mom you can sleep in the play room.

3 days off = bad

Last Thursday, Kenny called me and said he wanted to paint, when you get home from work we will go to Home Depot and pick out the paint. To me this is wonderful because I have wanted to paint for a very long time but scared at the color choices. Friday, we had dinner plans right after work and did not get home til after nine. Saturday, we started to paint....well I cleaned off all counter space and put up all blankets to cover things while Kenny started to paint. Very good friends of ours called to ask if we wanted to go to dinner and off we went. Both nights I drank margaritas!
Sunday...I woke up got the kids breakfast and moved out of the way for Kenny to finish the painting in the kitchen. It was then I thought I am going to go on a morning run! From the start of it my breathing was off, my legs were not moving, and my head was just not being positive. I kept thinking how could my last run leave me on such a huge high and this run I am not even half way into it be so miserable? I decided right then to kick my own ass into gear, stop thinking negative and at least jog faster then I could walk because the dog has been showing off and walking this whole time. I did finish the 2 mile run with out walking at all and proud of it but also left me thinking why did I tell anyone I wanted to run a marathon.

I know now I will not and can not make excuses not to run. I am almost thinking I can not drink anymore but for now I do not want to blame the bad run on the margaritas! Last night I took off and tonight I will have a great run...thinking positive here....and hopefully last longer then 2 miles. 

2 miles

I truly was a nonbeliever in becoming a runner after being a non runner for so long.
If you would have told me in any part of my life I would be able to run 2 miles with out stopping and actually feeling good while I ran, I would have laughed in your face. I used to be a swimmer and swam I am sure over 1000 miles in my life time and felt fine but ask me to run and I would come up with an excuse as to why I could not practice.
Last night I decided to run outside as far as I could run, through out the run I was talking to myself only positively....the noise in between your ears really does make a difference. I ran the same distance that I have been walking the past two years and at the end of the run felt I had honestly accomplished something huge! I know it is not even close to the 26 miles I will be running in a marathon but it is one step closer then I have been before. Not only was I shocked that I was able to breathe normal during the run, I also could not believe the pleasure I had while running. Are you listening to me people...I said pleasure in the same sentence as I did with running! Yes, I actually enjoyed running and even after I had completed the two miles almost was upset I had stopped.
Maybe this is a new chapter in my life as I get closer and closer to turning 30, I will finally understand why people love running so much?