Uncle Jr.

today is my uncles birthday, he passed away about a month ago, he would have been 47. he was the uncle that was always smiling and always trying to put a smile on your face. he never married but had a life long girlfriend and never had kids although, i think he had many kids with all his nieces nephews and all our kids! i saw a post on my aunts facebook with a picture of my grandma and him and i just started to cry. i know that they are both in heaven together along with my grandpa, i am almost jealous b/c im not there with them. not that i am sending a message to God that i want my number pulled... i just mean to say that i miss them so very much. i want to see that they are all with out pain from the health issues they had here on earth. i want to hear their voices and feel their hugs again. when i was sitting at my uncles viewing i could hear his laugh and at his funeral it was gone, i couldnt hear it anymore. i wish i could go back to my childhood when i would stay for two weeks at my grandmas house so i could really listen to all their stories, advice and loving words. why is it we dont know as children to cherish those moments? i hope they all can hear my words now, Happy Birthday Uncle Jr., I miss each of you so much it is hard not to cry while i type, and I can not wait til i can be with you again.